19 February 2006
I have realized that i have within me the ability to face/handle and overcome/deal with whatever this world/life/destiny/fate may throw my way. My mother taught me that i can get anything that i desire. The only condition is that i have to want it bad enough and be willing to work for it then i can have it.She said anything which is how i have taken and always believd in.Now part of this anything is a big pain in my derriere : men.I have always thought and with few disappointments that i can get any man that my heart wants only that i must want him really badly. Now this is not too bad except th i seem to fancy what most people would call arrogant men. The hard nuts (no pun intended) to crack, must be the challenge of the chase and figuring them out. I simply love the quiet type the ones no one can figure out, the ones who seem hard to get except MBAs ( married but available). On the other hand i also love being the one that got away tis true your money can buy me anything but that dont mean that it can get you my affection.
In the few years that i have dated, taken the plunge, allowed cupid the priviledge of messing with my brains and hormones i know that i want a man but i know that i dont need one.i know how far i can go as far as getting a man is concerned. Tis true some are worth chasing tall the way to Timbuctu and i do agree with Guess that there are alot of good men left just not good for me. I like to be realistic and ask for that which even i know that i can give. The person must be just as willing as i am to put up with some of te things i do like foreign films with english subtitles, karaoke, live bands, sports among others some as strange as >d feeling up mannequinns.
Some of the joys of being alone is the fact that i can have my cake and eat it too, i get to choose my party and leave at my will. In this relation looking back at the things that i have done in the name of love, i know that this time i must do better. i know for sure i am nobody's booty call its either all or nothing which as at now am not ready for as Milo put it single but not willing to mingle. Till then I I I have my life to live. So may options so little time...