Dear You

These words couldn't put it better:-
I try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not here
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not here

Aint reality a b*ach. I have been fighting reality for a while now. I thought that i was strong and could walk away if i chose to then the B*ACH got me so am sitting at my usual lunch joint ALL HAIL KENCHIC and ALI'S on the easy having my usual bhajias then the thought comes creeping on me. See i have not seen you in a while now partly intentional partly just cant get myself to call but have sent you a text In that while i must admit that i have kept the whole things at the back and chose to forget or ignore or whichever.I thought that i had dealt with my feelings for you. I miss you just that simple i miss you, your company just the way i can talk to you about anything from sex to God. I love the way i know the side that many dont know my very own doctor eh baba vipi hiyo dose. Cant believe i thought that you were some arrogant SOB only to get to know you, your dreams,your fears,your hopes,the plans for that beach house at 60 you know my number still the same so hola. The times when you woke me up at 2am to do your confessions and declarations, you have no idea how much it touched me that you would let the shield down and let me see you at your lowest, that you would let me hold you that you knew you can tell me anything. How you shared your disappointments,worries and drama (my lips are sealed) and the juiciest of pasts that i have come to know so far.I remembering from the first dance to all the dances hukos in live band you trying to outdance me how plus the full bango classes. I love the way you stood up to me i mean just in my face get pissed if you want to but you always were the first to tell me if i was tripping. Remember the tender, dont think we are advertising it anyday soon think the committee will be out on this one. The drama, the suspicion then the way we worked together to fix that, the bible study and sharing about God. The farmiliarity,you know how i like my things and do right by me. For putting up with me that darl was a feat since even i know who i am. Sometimes i wonder if i have done the right thing but maybe its better this way.What iam saying is that i miss you. Just that i Miss you.