Dunno how to explain this but am just full of jumbled up emotions.I hate this ride, sometimes feeling vulnerable,insecure,unsure and others feeling like the luckiest woman alive.Today am at the bottom.
I take friendships very seriously. My close friends i can count on one hand. I have the habit of keeping people at arms length and not getting so attached but when i do its hook, line and sinker. The distance will normally help when i need to walk away, am one of those who when i walk i just keep at it. I hate it when a supposed friend who knows i posses a certain quality exploits it. I will most often take loads of crap, point it out to you to rectify if the said manners persist then i will walk away. I think sometimes its better to leave early than to wait until it is so bad this way there is at least a chance that we can be courteous to each other when we meet.
I try my best to be a good friend and get very disappointed when it feels like the effort is one-sided. At this point i will be forced to do a cost-benefit analysis which often results to me counting my losses and aborting the mission. Right now, there's an ongoing audit. I know that should i choose to walk away from this, it will hurt like hell yet part of me is sure that we will be ok.
Dont we all dear...two posts...one day...we are on a roll...(((((((((((gish))))))))))
ReplyDeleteone of those days...
ReplyDeleteThat must be some real introspection going on for you to unleash two posts in a day! I hope you manage to resolve things in a way that will leave you satisfied...
ReplyDeleteAm just looking foward to the end of the day egm,still auditing. tanks for passing by.
ReplyDeleteI feel u on this..
ReplyDelete'yet part of me is sure that we will be ok' Focus here and look out for the silver lining under the cloud.
ReplyDeleteklara, thanks gal.
ReplyDeleteKirima, letting go ni ngumu but we'll see.
such friends are just fiends (bomseh 07)
ReplyDeletepole about ure lousy day..hung in there dear..thao hugs ure way.
thanks betty.
ReplyDeleteWOW...I hope you feel better hon!!!
ReplyDeleteI could not get myself to finish reading this coz it resonates what I am feeling and a lot of who I am!
I hope you are feeling better. each difficult situation. each parting leaves us with lessons, and hopefully it's the same for you.
ReplyDeleteAki I feel you on this one.
ReplyDeleteMob hugs from this sides!
you will feel better with time
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ReplyDeleteJm it hurts lakini some friends are better not having, sad though.
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ReplyDeleteJm it hurts lakini some friends are better not having, sad though.
Gosh, friendship is so hard sometimes. Feeling you on this post. I've had my share of painful friendship issues.
ReplyDeleteI tend to give people 'long rope' as we say, lots and lots of forgiveness...then when they act too unbearable, too mean, too often, I reassess...and have to let go.
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