4 December 2005

Work In Progress

Do you feel at times like you are under construction? Get to that point where you feel like your life is being renovated? Lately, that's whati have been feeling. I have alot of things goingon inmylife right now. Iam at that poing where am letting go of alot of unstatisfactory and superficial relationships. The kind that i have put up with for fear of hurting other people. Iam that point where am redifinig myself.Who am i, what do i want out of life and why, what do i treasure, what are my successes and failures,where have i been, where am i now and where am i headed and what am i doing towards getting there?
This comes with close scrutiny, planning,setting and reviewing goals that i have set.It also come with reviewing my successes and failures, standards and expectations, gauging and reviewing my life. Looking and trying to understand the lessons i have learnt over time. Reviewing and establishing boundaries, setting and laying groung rules as they say rules help in order, a few dos and dont's for me as well as for others. Realizing how far i can go,when to stay and fight and when to walk away.
Reexamining my spiritual life with regrds to God and church, my participation and roles both play in my life. My physical which has prompted me to start eating healthy and start jogging.My social life, the relationships with family,friends. Especially friends since some friends are for a reason, others a season and others a lifetime now am working on the classification. My emotional and psychological, sorting out all the past hurts, losses, breakups and all other drama that i have at times chosen to ignore hoping that it wil sort itself out, or go away or time will heal. Financially, have gotten a better job thank God , quit dependig on others, investing among other things. Intellectually looking forward to improve self, forever a student, take some language classes, my masters next year and God willing call me Dr. Gishungwa by 30 i believe. Having moved out to live alone after living with friends for a long time truly alot of work, gets lonely at times but am blessed with a good friends.
See all this started with the looming of my birthday, the joys yet the au contraire to popular belief is the realization that i wont be 18 till i die, then again guess its the winds of change.
They say change is as good as rest . With the under construction sign up, my protective gear on am off to embark on this daunting yet necessary task. most grateful that i've got the greatest of all contractors on site... The Almighty God and creator.


  1. sounds like ur going thru some growing pains and thangs...all the best tryin to sort out ur self and ur life...kinda like re-arranging and reassesing self...its a hard task but one that needs to be done

  2. Hey

    How did you make it here be4 me Nick??


    Took words and thoughts right out of my mouth/head. Going through something very similar....

    Wishing you the best in your quest!!!

  3. Amen to that! Hang on to God's empowering grace for dear life. He will keep you going and growing.

  4. Hey girl, you go girl! Do your thing right. Things and ppl of no consequence in your/our live(s) gotta go and about now and one thing more when they go they gotta stay and not come back.

    Great read this, got me thinking. All the best in all you set apart and forth. All of God's blessings, go forth and prosper dear girlfriend! So happy for your new job and new life/style-in-the-making:)

    Happy Week, keep smiling, live in the moment :)

  5. All the best girl, as you undergo this construction to make the finished product a joy to know.

  6. let me be the first to say, Dr. Gishungwa, dibs on that discount when I come for my annual physical. Keep your head up and know we're always here for you.

  7. It's called growing up.Sometimes its hard but its' one of the best things that can happen to you.

  8. @nick
    thank you and the pain is not so bad with the end result in mind you know.
    thank you and let me know if we can start a support group for all the growers
    Amen to that. He's the best to do this work on me.
    you know am smiling all the way. Its kinda hard losing all the things and people who we think we need tho we dont but it has to be done.
    i pray that too that i come out a better woman. thank you
    @nick aka spidey
    wink wink back at you.i wont tell if you wont.
    for you anything, that physical will be on the house.
    change is difficult but necessary.

  9. I landed here a little late in the day but... (It's going on one in the morning here but I can't sleep so I'm getting myself acquainted with the Kenyan Blogosphere...)

    I say we're always a work in progress, always growing, always becoming because there's always something better to be... hang in there...

    and look back once in a while, see how far you've come and thank God..

    Take care

  10. This entry is really helping me evaluate my life. I hope all goes well with you.