5 August 2005

Mr. Right

At the risk of sounding like I never know the reason for anything in my life. I must first say that am still as joyful to the extent where am humming to myself, find myself dancing even at the bustop. I will let you all know how the joy cometh forth as soon as I find out.
Yesterday, I learnt something that I guess I have known but been denying for a long time. I am actually not pissed in fact all the more joy and bliss continues. I think must be the realization that it won’t work, see the truth is am commitment phobic. How do I know that? Every time am in a really good relationship and all is well, suddenly it is like the unspoken command to self-destruct. I will normally do everything I can to sabotage I t.
Then I got to thinking, (must be the bio-clock been ticking again) they say that there is a person especially for everyone. That destiny/fate/cupid/God or whatever it is that you believe in has a person just for you. A partner, one who is supposed to be like the other missing half piece of the jigsaw puzzle? Dreamily, one who will accept you just as you are (scary thought) since we at times don’t know who we are.
The “perfect” partner for you or me. One who makes you laugh when low/blue/sad, one who knows exactly what to say, how to say is and when to say it. The one who loves you just as you are. The one who sparks fire in you. One who awakes both your brains and your loins. The one who makes your toes curl (don’t ask wont tell). You know, the one whose perks and smirks are just right. The person of your dreams (no wonder you never meet them)
Then again, am the realistic type hardly believe in romance and love, prefer tulips to red roses any day. Despite that I have loved truly once when I was younger. Now I think that my ideologies, beliefs and the mother of them all experience get in the way of cupid’s arrow. I cant say that I have been around long enough o prove the theory right or wrong. All I know about men from my experience and that of others (read gal talk) is that some are worth it and others aren’t (another blog, another day).
They say that you have to kiss a few frogs before you reach prince charming (the gals that is the men don’t know yet). Now I wonder how few is few and why cant I just get straight on with the so called prince charming you know cut the suspense and drama.
I have had my fair share of men each one of them has taught me something and helped me to discover something about myself that I didn’t know before. For that and other reasons best not told here (hey a gal must have a secret), no hard feelings.
I have learnt among others though that: -
God and my parents are the only people I can truly depend on.
I love me too much and enjoy my own company
I don’t need a man to define who iam I do that pretty well by myself.
I know what I want, how to get me so watch me get it
I am beautiful, intelligent, mumeru woman with all the curves in check with a lot to offer and any man is lucky to have my company.
Like wine am getting better with age.
I know when to stay and fight and when to walk away.
Still I cant wait to see what cupid / God has in store for me *ROFLOL* u know the man
I get to grow old with.
Patience is not my greatest virtus so till then I shall be at the pond…

12 comments:

  1. Hey!
    How come no male blogs under your list of "other blogs"?
    LOL
    Anyway, nice blog u have!
    :)

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  2. @digz guy...nick and kymbrr are dudes!!
    @gishungwa...when u least expect it, mr right in all his glory will sweep u off ur feet! U wont even know its happeneing!

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  3. mumeru woman with all curves in check... picha sista, picha...

    I believe the can be more than one mr(s) right... That's why widow(er)s can get happily remarried... The problem is that the ratio of mr(s) wrongs to mr(s) rights is n:1 where n is a very, very, very large number...

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  4. what if u ever find ms right and u let her get away...do u get another chance?

    will u have to settle for less next time around for she will always pale in comparison?

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  5. Yeah, I read the book-You have to kiss alot of frogs, sometime back. Dang! twas to interesting, drama, drama. I keed u not!

    I know nothing about love(lips sealed) all I know is it is said you donn know how until u know how then u know how.But, I believe in there been a right match for all interested out there.

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  6. @ milonare lol n is a very large number surely!!
    msichana mumeru there is plenty of love and there is no one mr/s right there are those with whom you can live with and cannot live without as a result.
    @nick if she gets away how was she right

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  7. BTW, seems taking photos of your toes is in vogue. ha . Anyway, there is always that person who comes in your life and it feels just right. However he may not be Mr.Right some men have learnt the art of seduction.

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  8. Iam touched by your response.
    @digz guy
    there willbe more blogs for the men am just beggining
    @kipepeo
    when it happens it happens huh! sweep me off my feet...
    @milonare
    picha hahaha
    i agree you can find love more than one time aint that grand
    @nick
    you should never settel for less or let yourself come second choice.
    @prousette and poi
    i still believe in waiting for that person who as you said can live with and cannot live without
    @shiroh
    the toes, toesnappers anonymous should be in session due to quorum. I agree with you about the person who makes and feels right.
    thank you all for yourcomments.
    the joy goes on and am still at the pond...

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  9. Iam touched by your response.
    @digz guy
    there willbe more blogs for the men am just beggining
    @kipepeo
    when it happens it happens huh! sweep me off my feet...
    @milonare
    picha hahaha
    i agree you can find love more than one time aint that grand
    @nick
    you should never settel for less or let yourself come second choice.
    @prousette and poi
    i still believe in waiting for that person who as you said can live with and cannot live without
    @shiroh
    the toes, toesnappers anonymous should be in session due to quorum. I agree with you about the person who makes and feels right.
    thank you all for yourcomments.
    the joy goes on and am still at the pond...

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  10. @prousette: she was right but still u didnt appresiate that fact or didnt know it at the time-being a dumb ass dude as usual!

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  11. Count me in. I intend to be a regular. Nice post.

    Blue

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  12. Woiyee where have I been I missed this one.Trust
    me I have kissed enuff frogs and tadpoles. As
    they say go with the flow and the prince will come
    when least expected, so they all say to comfort
    those whose princes have not come yet...

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